“I still don’t know what I was waiting for

And my time was running wild

A million dead-end streets

And every time I thought I’d got it made

It seemed the taste was not so sweet

So I turned myself to face me

But I’ve never caught a glimpse

Of how the others must see the faker

I’m much too fast to take that test

 

Ch-ch-ch-ch-changes

(Turn and face the strange)

Ch-ch-changes


Don’t want to be a richer man

Ch-ch-ch-ch-changes

(Turn and face the strange)

Ch-ch-changes

Just gonna have to be a different man

Time may change me


But I can’t trace time.”

~David Bowie-Changes

 

Are you guilty of waiting for CHANGES?

Are you guilty of being busy to distract yourself from CHANGES? I know that I can be guilty as charged. I love changes and variety, but I have been told I don’t do well with said changes. Bah humbug. Yes, I do love changes when I know what steps I am taking next. I am in the tail end of a major change, and I realized I’ve acted like a big baby through this whole process! (I am typing this and laughing at myself.) I do not sit well with not knowing what next steps I am going to take. Not because I wasn’t clear, but because I was tired, and needed to take a time out from a lot of things; people for one and the exterior environment to name another. I am still working on more time out (it is a deal I negotiated with myself) so let me explain this, in my world it becomes a tsunami. I enter into a mental tailspin that is a huge storm, better known as my Hagin the Attic starts driving my car of life and goes on a high-speed chase, and, yes I know it will end, but when? If I do not know what to do to ride things out (next steps, what’s ahead…the doer…Going, going, going, not gone yet!) I can become resentful, angry, tired. This mindset plays on self-worth, esteem, confidence and most importantly of all…self-love!

OUT OF CONTROL not managing!

I do not like the unknown of what, when and where is next…

You can implement the following into your day: it is time to go to the time out, breathe, be, and not worry about what is next. For the first time in 57 years, I do not have this all aligned and figured out! (My palms are sweating typing this.) But a part of me craves the peace, rest, and slowing down to speed up…at my pace… on my terms. That works for my life and my family. Changes are inevitable, but we are not meant to cram our feet into the glass slippers just to make things happen. Slow down, plan, strategize, organize, breathe, meditate and surrender to a higher power to support, love and assist you. When we don’t surrender and have conversations, we miss larger opportunities that keep us further from the truth—US! Opportunities that we cannot even create because we are so busy forcing things. I live and walk in Faith, knowing my back is covered and there is a far greater plan than what I can create!

We live in change every single day!

Day changes to night; Sun up,  and the sun down changes to Moon. When we wake up, it is a whole new day that awaits change. Like I said change is inevitable, but how much do you want to resist, fear, fight and or flight? How about faith, surrender, joy and welcome change?

“Don’t want to be a richer man; just gonna have to be a different man” ch-ch-changes, turn and face the strange CH-CH-CHANGES!

Hmmm, David Bowie was onto something, will you be? I feel I am. As much as I act like a bitch, brat, kick and scream or surrender…Ch-Ch-Changes brings joy, faith, and self-love! Big outrageous opportunities that we never could of imagine in a million years! CHANGES!

 

Peace,

Kim